Happyness

On Friday night, I finally watched The Pursuit of Happyness in the lovely confines of my own bedroom. It was actually nice to watch a movie in my bed from my monitor on my desk (that I had to move around).

Anyway, it was a nice movie. A great success story. I liked it. It's a feel-good story in a way and I think I was into the movie as well. I could feel the emotion in the movie, in the story. When Chris Gardner finally won that position at Dean Witter after all that hard work, overcoming all those obstacles, I was so happy, almost in tears actually. Will Smith, I felt, played that moment to a "T" (whatever that means lol). :)

Anyway, during that movie, some quotes really jumped out at me. Both were said by Chris Gardner while in a narrative mode in the film.

"And it was at that time that I thought about Thomas Jefferson writing that Declaration of Independence. Him saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it."

"Maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue. And maybe we can actually never have it no matter what."

All my life, I think I was always looking for something that truly made me happy. I always thought that, THAT was what was missing in my life. It was a big deal to me. But now, I feel that, it's not that big a deal anymore, although, I small part of me is still looking for it. I'm not 100% happy, but then, I don't know if I can ever BE 100% happy. I think I rather have joy.

But anyway, I think these two quotes really just jumped out at me because of how I can really connect with it, especially the second quote. "Maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue. And maybe we can actually never have it not matter what." It's kinda how I feel now. Maybe I'm just not meant to have it...maybe not at this point. God has a huge plan for me and it's already in motion, it's been in motion for 25yrs.

Today's sermon really touched me too, but I think I'll write about that another day though.