What Is This?

Seriously.

I'm so frustrated right now. I'm not happy. I'm getting bitter. And I don't like it. In turn, I'm becoming a jackass to everyone around me 'cuz it affects me so much.

So many thoughts running through my head it's not even funny. I can go on a rant, but I don't think it'd be good to post my thoughts here. I've already voiced my opinion about some matters that I don't agree with to my friend. If that's the way it has to be, then so be it. I'll just try to be accomodating.

I don't know why, but that issue really upsets me. I just don't understand the logic behind it. Maybe I wouldn't be this upset if I understood, but this whole "problem" is just coming at a bad time as well.

I've been thinking about people in my life a lot lately, and I just wonder. Who really cares? I think what really kick started this thinking process was an article I read on my friend's blog. Got me thinking about my own life and the people that surround me. If I died today, what would people say about me? Would people come to my funeral? Would anyone really miss me? These questions have always amazed me, and I've always wondered if I could watch my own funeral and hear what people have to say, or see what people would do.

Now, who's actually being genuine? Who is just being the nice person and just asking how you are just for the sake of asking the question. At least when I ask, I mean it. I want to know. Why? 'Cuz it's a way to get to know the other person better, but it only works if they're willing to open up.

But, I may be hypocritical. Sometimes I don't open up 'cuz I rather keep some matters private. Same goes with the other person you're talking to. So..whatever.

I hate it when people only talk to people when they want something from them. That's just damn rude.

I'm just a little fed up. Starting to give up. If you don't care, why should I care?

Maybe I just don't know the full story.

Enlighten me. Please.