Everywhere I Go, I See...

• BMWs, Mercedes, Infinitis..basically rich luxury type cars own by spoiled fobs..
• girls, girls, and more girls - some hot, but i don't really pay attention to them..WHAT?!
• gf/bf...couples...they're everyFREAKINGwhere!
• trees
• roads
• ugly buildings
  

anyway...

can't do it! dunno why. i just can't. i just can't sit down and READ DAMMIT! my book is open. i read a couple pages, but i can't just sit and read for like 10mins. so restless. i need an outlet. i need a place to go. maybe even a study buddy.

*sigh*..i dunno what my problem is. hey at least tonight maybe i can get some real rest. afterall i AM tired 'cuz i couldn't sleep last night.

so yeah, i tried to do work/read at different times today. once when i came back from my afternoon class. but i forget what i did. watched an episode of Love Hina i think? i forget, and then before i know it, it's 4pm. Oprah's on. haha..tho today's episode kinda sucked, so i read a little. but only a little, like 2-3pgs. today's topic was like ppl who lived double lives or something. i dunno..it was really more of an addiction really. the funny thing was that..it was all girls that confessed. odd. one woman confessed that she was like a chronic shoplifter. and the other two i remember were like addicted to gambling. i dunno, i wasn't really paying attention actually. anyway that's that.

then i wanted to read before my night class, after dinner. but that didn't happen either 'cuz i was tired, and was thinking of taking a nap. but somehow i dragged the time and my mom called. so before i know it, i had to go to my 3hr night class. yippee..

dah i'm all messed up.

well at least there's some good news. like i said yesterday, my phone is up and running. so that's cool. and i finally know when our first hockey game is. it's actually this THURSDAY. so soon! so yeah, i'm looking forward to that. :D

anyway, i'll go now. sleep..read...whatever..

Linkin Park
Easier To Run

it's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they never show
they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they've played

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave

it's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so
there would never be a past

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave

just washing it aside
all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel so misplaced
is so much simpler than change

it's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone