Breaking The Habit

yes, so now it's time to break the summer habit of...doing nothing.

the term has started, and now it's time to back into the swing of things..the school swing of things. that means..opening books..AHHHHHHHHHHH..wait..first i need to go buy my books! then i can scream. :D

ok so..yeah no point in this post. but i'll say more anyway. yesterday during the History & Film class, my prof (but not for long probably, since i'll be dropping this class...most likely) played the Linkin Park song, Breaking The Habit to illustrate the difference between interpretation and history. some ppl interpreted the song as a suicide song, others as a relationship song, and a song about drugs. for me, i was trying to think of it from a historical point of view. so i thought of breaking the habit as like...stopping the cycle of repeating history. you know that saying "history often repeats itself." i dunno if that makes any sense. but yeah, that's what i thought of it as. but on the other perspectives, i can also see the song as all the intepretations mentioned above. someone even said something about getting out of the mainstream and doing your own thing, having your own thoughts, instead of the norm. y'know what i mean?

so anyway...yeah..


Linkin Park
Breaking the Habit

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
[Unless I try to start again]
I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That i'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I'll paint it on the walls
Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight