Stare

Do you ever just sit there and stare blankly at nothing? And then let out a huge sigh?

I do. Every morning. Not knowing what the heck is going on. It's another day. I thank God everyday for giving me the strength to get through each day.

Life. It's not an easy thing to endure.

Why is it so hard to let things go? Give it up to God? Is it because we still have hope in those things? Whatever they may be? If we let it go, does that make us hopeless? I don't know.

I need to stay busy. I can't stay still. If I just do nothing, bad things happen (not physically). I become more cynical then ever, become a pessimist, constantly asking the question - Why?

Ok I need to go do something. Bad things are creeping up.

Everything has changed.